You have been here for a month as of Monday. You came into the world 3 weeks early and we could not be more happy. I asked for one day off from work and that's exactly what you gave me. But more than that, we are so just thankful that you are here.
You have been prayed for since before Daddy and I were even a couple. We have wanted you to be here since we knew we would get married. Sorry we had to wait so long but God knew what was best.
You had your first photo shoot a day after you were born in the hospital.
You had your second a week later. We will treasure those pictures forever since you will never be that little again.
I got to celebrate my first Mother's Day because you came early. I have been able to start my lifelong dream of being a stay at home mommy.
Daddy had his pinning ceremony on Sunday and you were able to be there.
You have already made our lives mean so much more. I've never been more tired or more happy.
Unfortunately, I've been struggling with a little postpartum depression - feeling like a milk machine more than a mommy, struggling to feel connected to you, lacking that instant overwhelming love for you, your cries bringing me frustration and empathy tears.
Thankfully, you and your daddy make me feel loved at just the right moments. I hope you learn so many things from your daddy just by watching him be the Godly man that he is.
I pray that I can start feeling more in love with you on a consistent basis. Please know that I do love you.
I love when you get calm at just hearing my voice.
I love when you grab my finger.
I love when you make eye contact with me.
I love all your cute and funny faces.
I love when you smile in your sleep.
l love when you fall asleep on my chest.
Sometimes I just don't feel lovey as much as I want. You are an answered prayer. I just have to adjust how I react to your needs. You will always need me and I will always need you and love you - I am your kiss goodnight, and you are my I love you.
