Friday, March 31, 2017

A Letter to Averi: One Month

Oh my baby girl,

Daddy and I are so glad you have joined our family.

Your big brother really loves you too. He is always asking to "hold Avi" and you love it.


When you were born, we had to stay in the hospital more than one day because you had jaundice. You had to wear a mask to protect your eyes from the lights. I'm so sorry that you couldn't see the world for 12 hours. It hurt our hearts to have you like that for so long.

We were able to go home after that was over though!

We went to Grandma & Grandpa's house to watch the Super Bowl. Nana and Poppy were still there too. Of course, Brother had to hold you again. =)

We got to take new family pictures. Did I mention we love you?!

You went to your first play date when you were only 5 days old. Brother got to hang out with his friends and you got to be outside with Mommy and her friends.

Brother loves laying down next to you and telling you "Hi" whenever he can. He even lets you lay down on his bed!

You went to church for the first time when you were 10 days old. It was 2 days before Valentine's Day so we made sure you wore an outfit with hearts on it.

Mommy has even started letting you lay down on your activity mat.

You don't hate tummy time yet...and you even hold your own head up for a few seconds at a time! That means you have really strong neck & back muscles already!

I'm pretty sure you like being outside as much as Brother does. You tend to stop crying when I take you on the back porch or to the park with us.






Brother has started to share his toys with you. Well, at least showing them to you and trying to get you to hold them. He can't wait until you can actually see them and hold them.

You make our family so much better.

I am not struggling to love you and bond with you as much as I did with your brother. I think it's because I knew a little bit of what was coming with a new baby this time. You are such a sweet girl that it's pretty easy to love you. You are a wonderful addition to our family. You are making us all better people. I cannot wait until your little personality starts to show and you become your own person, not just a sleepy, hungry baby.

"I love you all the way to the moon...and back."
Mommy

Friday, March 3, 2017

Our L&D Story with Jelly Bean

On Tuesday, January 31st, I had my 39 week appointment for Jelly Bean. I didn't know what to expect since I had never been pregnant this long. Jayce was born just after 37 weeks and I was 39.5w at this appointment. I knew my (new since Jayce) doctor would be wanting to schedule an induction around 41 weeks. At the appointment, I was still 2cm dialated and 75% effaced. The effacement was a 25% increase from the past 2 weeks. That was the only change though. After my appointment, I knew I had to try all the old wives tales about how to naturally induce labor. I started to use my breast pump at night, sex, and Jerome even found accu-pressure points to try while massaging my ankle/feet swelling.

On Friday morning, February 3rd, I woke up at 7:30am to go to the bathroom before Jerome left for work. When I got up to change, water kept randomly leaking down my legs. I called for Jerome, who was apparently opening the front door to leave for work. Thankfully, he heard me and came back to check on me. The leaking wouldn't stop and we knew that Jelly Bean would be making an entrance at 39 weeks 6 days! At 8am, Jayce woke up like normal. Jerome was able to get him up, dressed, and fed. By 8:30am, my contractions had officially started! We were in the car by 9am heading to my parents house. They live 5 minutes from the hospital that we were delivering in this time. Since we live outside of Houston now, we didn't want to risk the possibility of traffic when I was in labor. From 9:30am to noon, I labored at their home with Jerome. A sweet "little sister" came over to watch me labor, learn for her upcoming delivery, and take pictures of the process for us. When I would sit on an exercise ball, my water would continue to gush out. However, I felt more progress in the contractions when I was standing up. I leaned over the bar counter when contractions were getting more intense.

At noon, we left Jayce at the house with my dad. That was such a hard thing for me: leaving my baby knowing that his world was about to change and he wasn't going to be my baby any more. My mom drove Jerome & I to the hospital while C.K. followed. When we were on the way, Jerome was able to text a friend from high school who is an L&D nurse at our hospital. She was free and put herself in our room! I was so thankful to have a friendly face in the delivery room. My doctor left that morning to get away from the Super Bowl craziness! When we got to the hospital, I was measured at 5cm dilated and 90% effaced. I was so thankful change was happening! My SIL arrived soon after bringing the one thing we forgot, our printed birth plan for everyone to see. Jerome and I walked around the room to help my contractions progress me even farther. Every time I sat on the birthing ball, my water continued to gush! I hit transition around 2pm. The contractions were so intense, I needed to lay down in the bed. I couldn't deal with them and try to stand at the same time. We got a peanut birthing ball and put it between my legs while I laid on my side. Jerome was amazing the entire time and kept reminding me to breathe through my contractions instead of fight them. Every time, I said, "I just want to hold my baby." Jerome would keep reminding me that the harder I worked, the sooner I could hold my baby.

Around 2:45pm, the on call doctor came to check on me. My nurse/friend had her check me because she couldn't tell if I was fully dilated or not. The doctor said I was 9.5cm and pretty much fully dilated. She had an appointment up in the office so she chose to leave and come back after the appointment. I heard my nurse tell Jerome she didn't think I would make it that long. She thought pushing was coming soon. Sure enough, within 5 minutes or so of the doctor leaving, I was screaming through contractions begging to push. They called the doctor back down to my room. I begged to push again and she said "I'd love for you to push." I was so thrilled!! It was right around 3pm when I was allowed to start pushing Jelly Bean. I was holding onto the bed rails, pulling my head back, and screaming through the pain. Unfortunately, this is not ideal. I found out later that it was causing Jelly Bean's heartbeat to go from the 120s to the 80s. My nurse & Jerome had my feet but she encouraged me to grab my thighs to help push through the contractions. As soon as I did that, progress REALLY started. I could tell Jelly Bean was getting closer every contraction. It was maybe 3-4 good contractions (3 10 second pushes each) later that I saw my baby's face....and a blue cord around her neck. I immediately started praying that he/she was ok and then I heard a cry. I was in shock that the cord wasn't affecting my baby very much. Jerome leaned to me and said "It's a girl" through tears.

During one of my last pushes, I felt Jelly Bean stop being pulled out. I found out later it was when her shoulders had just come out. The cord was wrapped around her neck and they stopped her progress to unwrap the cord. That's when they saw it was wrapped around a second time. That's what I saw when she was being lifted up. They were able to remove it quickly that it didn't affect her breathing for very long; hence, why I heard her cry so soon after I saw it.

Our sweet Averi Joy entered this world at 3:27pm on Friday, February 3rd, 2017. She weighed 8 pounds even and was 21 3/4 inches long. Jayce came and met his little sister around 5pm. He wasn't sure about her at all. However, after we moved to the recovery room and everyone was holding her, Jayce wanted his turn to hold "Ave-ee." Around 6pm, we were a family of 4 in pictures. I couldn't believe how sweet of a big brother Jayce already was.


Tuesday, May 17, 2016

A Letter to Jayce: One Year

To my baby boy,


I have avoided writing this as long as I can. You will be 13 months old tomorrow so I better write this to you now. 

My love for you has grown exponentially over the last year. I hope you can tell based on these letters. I've grown into my role of mommy and accept the good days with the bad. It was so new when you were first born (duh!) and I was scared of what I was doing. Now, I still don't know what I'm doing but l don't get scared about it. 

You communicate so well. You sign most of the words we've taught you and you even say a few too. This past month went by so fast (the one leading up to you turning one). 

We celebrated your first Easter at the ranch. 

You got your first Easter basket (without the rabbit since it was left at home). 

Grandma and Grandpa even got you your first bouncy ball and tennis shoes. 

And we let you play with cascarones. You didn't quite get the true point of them. That's okay though. 

Nana and Poppy even sent you some things for Easter. 

You became a full time walker. It kind of broke my heart to see you growing up. BUT, I'm super proud of you and your accomplishments. 

After becoming a walker, you decided to start standing up without any help. Normally, that happens before walking but you didn't care. =)

Like any good Texan family, we stuck you in a bunch wild flower bluebonnets that was a ditch on the side of a highway. =)

And then, it was your birthday. We woke you up singing "Happy Birthday," put balloons in your crib, and let you play in them. You LOVE balloons!


We had your birthday party a few days later when it was the weekend. Your friends, our friends, and our families were able to come over and celebrate.


The last few pictures are from your one year photo shoot. You look so grown up. I may not admit it but, you are a big boy now (until you get bigger). This year has been so hard for me: emotionally and spiritually. I'm not as good spiritually as I should be but I'm better than when you were first born. Emotionally, I'm still a wreck when you accomplish things. However, I'm ok with it. I cry selfishly and then I'm celebrating your accomplishment and helping you achieve more. I hope I can be that way as you continue to grow up. To me, there is no way I could do that without God. That's where I can tell I'm doing better spiritually. God is making a difference in my attitude without me even knowing it.

I love you so much.
(I cannot wait until the day that you become a big brother. It will break my heart, I'm sure, that you won't be my baby. Your heart and attitude is already showing me that you will be such a great big brother. You are going to be awesome at it!)

"I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always,
As long as I'm living, My baby you'll be."
-Love, Mommy







Thursday, March 24, 2016

A Letter to Jayce: Eleven Months

To my sweet boy,


You are such a big boy. I can't wait to see what this month holds and how many tears I will shed. 

You have been saying "Dada" and "Mama" on a consistent basis. Of course, "Dada" is your go to word for almost everything. You've gotten really good at signing "more" and waving. Hopefully, the words come and more signing too. 

You gave me a huge gift by finally taking a nap in you crib this month. It hasn't happened since moving into our house (over 3 months!). Now, you take both of your naps in your room. Thank you. So much. 


You started bear crawling. The next step is standing up and walking on your own. 😩


You tried Cheerios and they are now your go to snack. I love how you try to use your little front teeth to actually bite them in half and then eat them. 


You have started to stand on your own without holding on to anything. We either stand you up like that or you let go of the furniture and stay standing. 


You love brushing your teeth. We can give you a toothbrush and it helps you stop crying or you lay still while I change your diaper. It's been fun watching you reach for your toothbrush. 


We have started going to Mother Goose time with our new Sunday school friends. You are loving the rhymes and story time. 


You have started using your walker to walk around the house. You used to cry just looking at it. We are so proud of you. It's helping you learn how to walk forward. Cruising has only been sideways. You are getting big & brave!


I am dreading this next month because you will stop being a baby on your birthday. But you are showing us that big things are on the horizon this next month too. 

I love you. 
And my baby you'll always be. 

(I promise I started this within a week of you being 11 months!!)

Saturday, February 20, 2016

A Letter to Jayce: Ten Months

Hi there stinker!


It's officially time to start planning and making things for your birthday. I'm not okay with that. I couldn't wait for the first few months to be over since I was struggling so much. Now, time hasn't slowed down and I'm struggling with that. I can't help but think of you growing up, going to college, meeting that girl, and hoping I can cut the cord before then so I can be a good mother in law. But to stop all that, I've decided Jesus is coming back before you become a teenager. 😂😂 

Ok, onto you and less of me. This month was crazy. Mommy finally decided going on walks is really good for both of us so you found your new favorite things: the swing and Clifford at our neighborhood park.




We also are going to Tiny Tots and Tunes at church. You LOVE it. You like music, shakers, bells, and most of all, the bubbles!




You have started making so many noises too. Your fishy face helps make clucking noises, blowing bubbles makes a good spitting sound, and patting your open mouth & strumming your lips makes a great echo sound. 

You and Shorty are getting along better too. I think he finally realizes that you aren't going away, aren't staying still anymore, and you only want to love him & share things with him. 


You have officially learned how to use Shorty's stairs also. So, you are trying to translate that knowledge to other objects that can help you climb up on things. You're getting creative. 



You went to visit your Great Aunt Peggy,

You hosted your first Super Bowl party,

You celebrated your first Valentine's Day,

And you got your first viral infection and ear infection. 


Daddy and I were so worried about you when you were coughing all through the night. I took you to the doctor Monday morning before you were 10 months. It's the first time I've had to take you to the doctor for something other than your month checkups. Thankfully your antibiotics helped you start feeling better 2 days later. 


One of my favorite moments this month was you helping with the dishes. You LOVE to help me unload the silverware, whether it's clean or dirty. 😂 You are great at taking out one piece of silverware, showing to me, and then giving it to me when I say thank you. I just have to wait to load the dishwasher when you aren't looking. Otherwise, all the silverware keeps getting handed to me. Hopefully, this "happy to help with the dishes" phase lasts longer than I'm guessing it will. 



This next month, I'll be holding onto every moment. After next month, you won't be my baby anymore because then you'll be a year old. I can't believe it. 

I love you forever. 
Mommy