Thursday, August 20, 2015

A Letter to Jayce: Four Months

Baby boy,

You are one third through your first year in our lives. I. Love. You. 


You have grown emotionally, mentally, and physically. I want to slow time down but I want to see you grow too. #mommyproblems

A big moment for me this month was finally packing up all of your newborn size clothes. I didn't think you would be able to wear them to 3 months. I also didn't think I would cry when I packed them up. But I did. What makes it easier is that you can still fit in some 0-3 month clothes. 

Another hard moment was putting you down to sleep in your crib for the first time. It's in your room and not ours. I was using the monitor overnight and not just for a nap. What if I didn't wake up and you were crying? What if I never went to sleep because I was so paranoid? What if you didn't like it and neither one of us could sleep? 

We were both fine. I was able to sleep and so were you. I was also able to wake up when you started to cry or wake up.  After almost a month, Daddy packed up the pack and play that was on my side of the bed. I now have a dresser/nightstand again. I miss you being next to me but I'm proud of both of us moving forward. 

You are pretty consistent about sleeping from 11pm to 9am. New mom over here! You also still take pretty good naps, especially starting on car rides. 




But all your sleep is showing Daddy and I how much you're growing. You follow movement, people and voices really well now. You smile way more, showing your "shy" smile and being so cute. You are starting to figure out how to giggle and laugh. It's so fun to see you trying to figure it out.

Physically, you have gotten so tall (hence the clothes being packed up). You are really good at eating now but still too active to keep on much weight. BUT I was super excited to see you get your first rolls!

A big jump you made this month was grasping and holding onto objects! I wish I had a picture of you with your keys and elephant since you grab them the most. Sophie and your hands not only get grabbed, but they also make their way to your mouth. I'm waiting on those teeth to arrive! It seems like you are gnawing to alleviate the pain of them coming. 



All of this gnawing brought us to the first time you were ok with your paci too. 

But the biggest moment of all this month was when you rolled from your tummy to your back! You found a way to avoid tummy time and love it. 

You're even kicking your feet up a lot and thinking about rolling from your back to your tummy. 

My teacher friends went back to work last week and the first day of school was the day after you turned 4 months. It feels weird not getting a classroom ready this year. Even with the fussy days, I wouldn't trade my new job for anything. Some days are harder and more tiring than others (physically and emotionally). But it's still my dream job. I'm so thankful that Daddy supports this dream and God made a way for it to be real. I hope you are grateful for my career change when you get older. I wouldn't trade these days for anything. 

I love you little bear. 
To the moon and back. 

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